Reading Jesus' parables in Mark has me really reevaluating myself today. Am I sown in good soil? Easy answer no. I have fallen with the thorns too many times to count. I was really doing better & I let the cares of the world pull me away from what matters. I let myself be pulled to a new attention instead of God & His Word.
Recently, we've been having troubles. Nothing crazy but work & car problems come up when you least need it to. It made me feel awful that I couldn't/can't do much to help with it. I tried putting a smile on my face & being there for Max. Trying to busy myself in anything that wasn't "too much" so I didn't get overstimulated. Lets just say reading my Bible & actually comprehending it was extremely difficult & I didn't put as much heart into it as I have been. Getting close to God's Word again can be such a great feeling but I wasn't letting all of it go straight to my heart. Because of that I let the world's worries take over, us worriers do that almost everyday. I felt like I put so much time & energy into getting closer to God & look what happens to me. Financials are going crazy, we don't have a car & I can't do anything to lessen the stress on my man. I didn't blame God, things tend to happen, but I didn't turn to Him with my full attention because I was too "busy" in my own head.
Does anyone else do that? Let the world's cares & worries give them excuses to not get closer to God. Like our God can't possibly help us with what we're going through. How ignorant of us!.. How God can move mountains & we give excuses.. We fail to do the work when its not just going to come to us every time. Jesus gave parables to His disciples, so that they could dig deeper into His Words. He expects the same from us. He wants us to find the right key so that we can understand that He is always there & everyday we have so much to learn from Him. Even when we feel like we aren't learning something, we are, its just not the right time & place.
Lord, Help Me. May I dig deeper into Your Word & keep the joys it brings in praising Your name. Help me to know that everything doesn't have to be so complicated or straightforward & that I want to be planted in good soil so I can bear fruits for You. That I need to do the work in praising You even in the bad times. That there is going to be storms with or without You but they are so much more bearable with You Lord. Thank You! For everything I take for granted.
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