Procrastinating

Well, my Bible study "slapped" me in the face this morning. 

"6 Go to the ant, you sluggard!

Consider her ways and be wise,

7 Which, having no captain,

Overseer or ruler,

8 Provides her supplies in the summer,

And gathers her food in the harvest.

9 How long will you slumber, O sluggard?

When will you rise from your sleep?

10 A little sleep, a little slumber,

A little folding of the hands to sleep—

11 So shall your poverty come on you like a prowler,

And your need like an armed man." Proverbs 6:6-11 

I am defiantly one of those procrastinating people that constantly thinks that I can do everything later. I have known for a while that it is a problem but everything seems to be so overwhelming. Maybe because my silly tail has left many things that need to be done, undone or piled up so that at the point I actually need to do things, it seems too much. I've always been this way & I am trying to find ways to motivate myself & schedules that can help. Being a stay at home mom, you know that the house is never clean, sometimes it seems pointless to do anything because what is the point?? But something that does motivate me more is that my fiance doesn't need to come home to a messy house. But even that hasn't been working recently, I've finally caught up on laundry (as much that is possible) & the dishes have piled up & look to be endless. Had the boys rooms cleaned & now they are destroyed.. My brain is constantly telling me that you are exhausted & you just need a break or nap. Does anyone else wake up exhausted? I don't mean just sleepy but to the point that your eyes can't stay open. Your mentally drained even before you begin.. That's what us procrastinators feel. Then after the break we take that was the only thing we could do at that moment, we look around overwhelmed & frantically start going crazy cleaning or getting what needs to be done. After that burst of energy you can guess where we end back up. 

So, I'm gonna try something differently after reading these verses, stop taking day by day depending on how I feel or changing my schedule to accommodate anyone else & especially myself. Because what mom doesn't feel like she needs a break. I am to get up & just do. I am gonna get completely out of my comfort zone & do what needs to be done. Be like the ant, you lazy person. I need to stop giving into the excuses my head tells me, stop giving in & take action. This is my home too & I deserve to have a home that I can truly relax in when the time is truly needed. I need to take more appreciation in that I have the opportunity to stay home & just keep the house in order. I want my boys to look at me & not see a stressed mess. I want them to see a Godly women that never stops & still makes time for them. I DON'T WANT TO BE LAZY ANYMORE! God doesn't want us in our comfort zone. He wants us to win at our goals when they also involve Him. He doesn't want us stressed & excessively sleeping & making excuses, like I keep making for myself. He wants us to take action & be like the ant, not having to be told to do things. Or in how I received the message, not waiting till its overwhelming & you feel like you are stuck. Because if you push through, it will all work out. I need to stop letting my worldly flesh consume me & make me feel like I either don't do enough or that I always need a break. I need to talk to God more & ask for His motivation & love throughout my day. Push through any comfort I have & get what needs to be done BEFORE it needs to be done. 

I can do this, with the help of Jesus. I need to fight the battles in my head & keep myself busy so that my mind doesn't win over what God has instore for my family & I.