Average day

Today, like everyday for me starts the same. Wanting to sleep in 10 more minutes.. then coffee. Lol.

Staying at home most days I get bored or feeling lazy. There are days I plan a whole day & do almost all of it. But more than most though, I don't get anything that I needed to get done finished. Am I doing enough with my children? Is my house clean enough? Why have I been in the same clothes for days..? Feeling overwhelmed around 2:00 because nothing I've done can even be noticed or even started. Hearing "Mommy here with me," five hundred times & finally tired of repeating myself & giving up on my task.  I am trying to  balance a life that use to be common, with a village. There isn't much villages anymore. Oh how I would love to have a mothers group that wanted to bring the old days back. Washing clothes together, reading together & helping raise our children together. Community that is true women empowerment. I always say I'd love to have someone just to talk to when doing house chores. (Maybe why when I finally do talk to others, I'm on the phone more than a hour...) I'd come to somebody's house with a bottle of wine & help clean if I knew someone needed it. But the society now is deal with your things in silence or feel too ashamed to ask for help. Did you know that women find Jesus in their work around & throughout the home? Aren't we so lucky! I read a post that changed my mind on feeling like I'm doing enough. We can find God's grace in how we handle our housework. What attitude are we showing our children? Because I know that I need to quit acting like they need to be rushed in the things they do in a day. Do I not feel overwhelmed so why make my children feel the same! I snap too quickly when I've had enough. My children should see a gentle, loving & nurturing mother. Not a women they don't know when she's gonna snap.. What attitude do I show my partner when all he sees is I'm always complaining & have nothing nice to say? He had a hard day too. He may need me more than he is letting me know. Jesus always shows love, Jesus always has time & Jesus makes us want to do better than we were the day before. So that is gonna be my simple day task. Show my children & partner the grace that I need. Lord, Help Me. Simple but very important prayer to God. HE hears us & wants us to change our not so good ways. Improve our minds & focus on Him. Even on my average day of dealing with animals, a toddler & house work I am reminded repeatably that I need God's help more now than ever because I am raising the next generation with an amazing man. God can be my village. He is there with me while washing dishes, He is there when I've had enough & He wants me to know that He has always been here & to not feel alone. 

To all the mothers out there that feel similar to me, please reach out. If not to someone that can lighten your load, then to someone that never leaves your side. Jesus made us mothers so we could find love in Him even more. And how I feel that love today, even on my average day.